Woo finally an update(: ENJOY<33
"It's just hard because I am absolutely head over heels in love with you. And maybe you fall in love often, but I don't."
Athazagoraphobia- Fear of being forgotten
I'm hardly capable of half the damage that I would like to do. I could swear that I don't care, but you know I'm too full of shit to think this through.
It's been so long i've felt so wrong again.
You love me like a woman and need me like a habit. And every time you look at me you know that I'm the girl who could care enough for you to let you go.
I won't get used to this, I won't get used to being gone, and going back won't feel the same.
Nervous and your tearing at the seams. The lights are too bright and you've got cold feet.You look the part and you're only seventeen. Can you drag me up and show me what we're missing out on. Don't waste your time. We've heard it all before.We've had enough and hangers on and "friends" we didn't want.
You have too much, you're spending all your time collecting and discovering. It's not enough. And no matter how you try, you never find the one you want.
"You're still pretty unhappy, aren't you?" He asked. I nodded, staring ahead. "Did you ever think that maybe you're better off?" A hand moves in the dark to a zipper. Hear a boy bracing tight against sheets barely whisper; 'This is so messed up.'
Without liftin' a finger you're holdin' me back.
We could pack up and leave all our things behind. No fact, or fiction, or storyline. Cause I need you more than just for tonight.
Sneaking back into my bedroom at 4 a.m. Never felt so good.
& He said;; I told her countless things, but what I never told her was the truth. You don't have to believe me, but the way I way I see it. Next time you point a finger, I might have to bend it back or break it, break it off. Next time you point a finger I hope it's at the mirror.

For any one of us, our forever could end in an hour, or a hundred years from now. You never know for sure, so you'd better make every second count.
I found a new best friend in hatred that says its too damn late to save this. Youre so good at making bad decisions, but even better at burning bridges.
And all I ever wanted was all I ever needed. And every time I look at you. I know that you're the man who could love me like no other And hate me like no other and want to see this face look into you forever.
Lately I've found myself looking back at disastrous memories. Memories of me ruining relationships that I cherished most. Memories that have led me to the life that I live now, but I know they make me exactly who I am today.
And theres no one to tell us, now or ever,
why it ends, why it always ends.
I'm gonna find someone, someday who might actually treat me well.
I wish you hadn't turn your back. I wish you had explained. I wish you hadn't made me loose my faith in everything. Sometimes the hardest thing to let go of is something you never really had. What could've happened, didn't.
Today you were far away and I didn't ask you why. What could I say? I was far away. You just walked away and I just watched you. What could I say? How close am I to losing you. Tonight you just close your eyes and I just watch you slip away.
It's not the fall that kills you, it's the sudden stop at the end.
I fell in love with you no matter what you say but you were right about the reasons.
I was told to never look back, to keep walking. and the minute I looked over my shoulder, I saw everything I ever gave up on. all the things I let go of, and all of the people who let go of me
Maybe I know somewhere deep in my soul that love never lasts.
She didn't giggle or blush when she saw him. She didn't write his name all over pieces of paper. She simply lived with his face in her heart all the time. A kind of sweet, hurtful ache.
I tried to give you up, but I'm addicted. I saw you walking by today. Your hair was longer and you might have been a little taller. But it was still you, and you still smiled at me, and I still couldn't speak.
It's not your fault, you've been good to me.
"I want to know what you see when you look at me.” His fingers dug into my shoulders. “I want to know your favorite Stooge and the hour you were born and the thing that scares you more than anything else in the world. I want to be there when you wake up.
Just listen to me on one thing. Everyday you wait is one day you will never get back. Trust me on that.
Its those moments when you drive around in a car full of friends around a town too small for you. Where you gasp for breathe between each laugh. Its about those moments where you get high off just breathing in so deep, you feel your lungs getting cold. For a second, that split second, you dont care. You dont care about school, about parents, about money, about rules, or broken hearts. Who you care about are the kids sitting next to you. Cause its all we really need, isnt it? Those kids next to you, yeah. The ones who make you feel invincible, even at your weakest points.
You're silence; it's suffocating. but your words may be worse.
Been through a lot in the last year, it's like everything I love is slipping away. And every time I come home, some more of me isn't there. I gotta get it together, I need to do things for myself. I've given everything but still you take more from me. I need some room to breathe.
Philophobia- Fear of love I will always carry you in my heart You'll always be my shooting star Autumn days will fade away, but memories will always stay the same I'm hoping you will never change, don't ever change
It's really fucking sad when you hardly trust anybody but one of the few people you do fucks you over. Fuck this. Go to hell you cocksucker. Things That Make Life Worth Living: Falling in love. Hearing your favorite song on the radio. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside. Milkshakes. Bubble baths. Giggling. Long conversations late at night. The beach. Running through sprinklers. Laughing at an inside joke. Laughing at yourself. Laughing so hard your stomach hurts. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all. Just plain laughing. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful. Friends. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep. First kisses. Making new friends or spending time with old ones. Playing with a new puppy. Sweet dreams. Hot chocolate. Road trips with friends. Making chocolate chip cookies. Holding hands with someone you care about. Watching the sunrise. Watching a sunset. Getting out of bed in the morning after sleeping in and looking out the window to see its sunny, birds are chirping, and kids are playing. Knowing that somebody misses you.
And it feeds my heart that you came looking for me, but I'm thinking I need to stay lost.
But how do you know when to let go?
|