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"It's just hard because I am absolutely head over heels in love with you.
And maybe you fall in love often, but I don't." 
Athazagoraphobia- Fear of being forgotten
I'm hardly capable of half the damage that I would like to do.
I could swear that I don't care, but you know I'm
too full of shit to think this through.
It's been so long i've felt so wrong again.
You love me like a woman and need me like a habit. And every time you look at me
you know that I'm the girl who could care enough for you to let you go.
I won't get used to this, I won't get used to being gone, and going back won't feel the same.
Nervous and your tearing at the seams. The lights
are too bright and you've got cold feet.You
look the part and you're only seventeen. Can you drag me
up and show me what we're missing out on. Don't
waste your time. We've heard it all before.We've had enough
and hangers on and "friends" we didn't want.
You have too much, you're spending all your time collecting and
discovering. It's not enough. And no matter how you try, you never find the one you want.
"You're still pretty unhappy, aren't you?" He asked.
I nodded, staring ahead.
"Did you ever think that maybe you're better off?" A hand moves in the dark to a zipper. Hear a boy
bracing tight against sheets barely whisper;
'This is so messed up.' 
Without liftin' a finger you're holdin' me back.
We could pack up and leave all our things behind.
No fact, or fiction, or storyline.
Cause I need you more than just for tonight.
Sneaking back into my bedroom at 4 a.m.
Never felt so good.
& He said;; I told her countless things, but what I never told her
was the truth. You don't have to believe me, but the way I way I see it. Next time you point a finger,
I might have to bend it back or break it, break it off. Next time you point a finger
I hope it's at the mirror.
For any one of us, our forever could end in an hour, or a hundred years from now.
You never know for sure, so you'd better make every second count.
I found a new best friend in hatred that says
its too damn late to save this. Youre so good
at making bad decisions, but even better at
burning bridges.
And all I ever wanted was all I ever needed. And every time I look at you.
I know that you're the man who could love me like no other
And hate me like no other and want to see this face look into you forever.
Lately I've found myself looking back at disastrous memories.
Memories of me ruining relationships that I cherished most.
Memories that have led me to the life that I live now,
but I know they make me exactly who I am today.
And theres no one to tell us, now or ever,
why it ends, why it always ends.
I'm gonna find someone, someday
who might actually treat me well.
I wish you hadn't turn your back. I wish you had
explained. I wish you hadn't made me
loose my faith in everything. Sometimes the hardest thing to let go of is something
you never really had. What could've happened, didn't.
Today you were far away and I didn't ask you why. What could I say? I was far away.
You just walked away and I just watched you. What could I say? How close am I to
losing you. Tonight you just close your eyes and I just watch you slip away.
It's not the fall that kills you, it's the sudden stop at the end.
I fell in love with you no matter what you say
but you were right about the reasons.
I was told to never look back, to keep walking.
and the minute I looked over my shoulder,
I saw everything I ever gave up on.
all the things I let go of,
and all of the people who let go of me
Maybe I know somewhere deep in my soul
that love never lasts.
She didn't giggle or blush when she saw him.
She didn't write his name all over pieces of
paper. She simply lived with his face in her
heart all the time. A kind of sweet, hurtful
ache.
I tried to give you up, but I'm addicted.
I saw you walking by today.
Your hair was longer and you might have been a little taller.
But it was still you, and you still smiled at me, and I still couldn't speak.
It's not your fault,
you've been good to me.
"I want to know what you see when you look at me.”
His fingers dug into my shoulders.
“I want to know your favorite Stooge and the hour you were born
and the thing that scares you more than anything else in the world.
I want to be there when you wake up.
Just listen to me on one thing.
Everyday you wait is one day you
will never get back. Trust me on
that.
Its those moments when you drive around
in a car full of friends around a town
too small for you. Where you gasp for
breathe between each laugh. Its about
those moments where you get high off
just breathing in so deep, you feel your
lungs getting cold. For a second, that
split second, you dont care. You dont
care about school, about parents, about
money, about rules, or broken hearts.
Who you care about are the kids sitting
next to you. Cause its all we really
need, isnt it? Those kids next to you,
yeah. The ones who make you feel invincible,
even at your weakest points.
You're silence; it's suffocating.
but your words may be worse.
Been through a lot in the last year, it's like everything
I love is slipping away. And every time I come home,
some more of me isn't there. I gotta get it together, I need
to do things for myself. I've given everything but still you
take more from me. I need some room to breathe.
Philophobia- Fear of love
I will always carry you in my heart
You'll always be my shooting star
Autumn days will fade away, but memories will always stay the same
I'm hoping you will never change, don't ever change
It's really fucking sad when you hardly trust anybody
but one of the few people you do fucks you over.
Fuck this. Go to hell you cocksucker.
Things That Make Life Worth Living:
Falling in love. Hearing your favorite song on the radio.
Lying in bed listening to the rain outside. Milkshakes.
Bubble baths. Giggling. Long conversations late at night.
The beach. Running through sprinklers. Laughing at an
inside joke. Laughing at yourself. Laughing so hard your
stomach hurts. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
Just plain laughing. Having someone tell you that you're
beautiful. Friends. Accidentally overhearing someone say
something nice about you. Waking up and realizing you
still have a few hours left to sleep. First kisses. Making
new friends or spending time with old ones. Playing with a
new puppy. Sweet dreams. Hot chocolate. Road trips with
friends. Making chocolate chip cookies. Holding hands with
someone you care about. Watching the sunrise. Watching a
sunset. Getting out of bed in the morning after sleeping in and
looking out the window to see its sunny, birds are chirping,
and kids are playing. Knowing that somebody misses you.
And it feeds my heart that you came looking for me,
but I'm thinking I need to stay lost.
But how do you know when to let go?
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